I've been with my current company for close to 3 years. I wasn't happy because it felt toxic. Colleagues are not kind, but I also reckon I'm not here to make friends. I've been telling myself - my main aim is just to bring home the dough.
Since late last year, I've been applying for roles as and when I see suitable ones. I won't say I'm actively looking since I'm not dying to leave my current workplace.
Anyway, I decided to refresh my memories on my job hunts previously. It was nice to read back my thoughts over the years:
- Back in 2016, I was fretting over a job interview. I still remembered I was peeved with the hiring manager who could not conduct the interview properly. Maybe I should have flag them to TAFEP.
- 2018 was the year I actively search for a new job. Interestingly, I got a role pretty quickly and accepted the role in the end. Bade adieu to my old workplace and joined the new organisation. Didn't have a smooth start in the new workplace, met toxic colleagues who thankfully left, and am now settling in pretty ok as a senior in the team.
- 2019 - complained about work, but also needed time to settle and prove myself here.
- 2020 - planned to find new opportunities but Covid struck
- 2021 - I think I can continue to cruise in my current role since I am mostly WFH, but I am also eager to jump to a more established company to prove my worth.
By stroke of luck, I got an offer.
However, the offer is the similar to what I was drawing.
I'm at a crossroad where I'm not sure if I should take the plunge. If the offer was much higher than my current drawn, I'd be tempted to make the switch. However, with compensation being similar, yet potential workload and stress higher, I'm not sure if it will be worth to take on this job....even if I'm treating it as a stepping stone.
The main pull factor is the brand name of the organisation and it will definitely leave a good mark in my resume. I'd also likely have other companies knocking on my doors opening up more opportunities.
BUT, I'm planning for motherhood as well, and while I cannot control the success of it, I'm worried I'd cause myself stress (increase infertility). What if I get pregnant in the new organisation?
My husband wasn't that encouraging. He said I'm not ambitious anyway. Why do I need to prove my worth and go to a new place that is definitely going to be more stressful?
In any case, it is good to have an option. I feel like my offer made me more confident. It does stroke my ego that I'm good enough to join an established company.
I will likely take up the new offer.
In the worst case scenario, if I cannot adapt to the new environment, I will resign. Good thing I have some cash buffer to cover my liabilities if I quit without a job. 🤭